Even though I have been walking everyday for the last two months (probably about 2-3 mi), with some mileage increase over the last couple weeks (now that my physical therapy is over), the reality that my half marathon is in less than two weeks just hit me: I’m not sure that I can nor that I should do it, period.
As I sit here writing this, wearing compression socks, icing my feet and hamstring after an evening walk, I’m second guessing my decision to try to push through this time. I really don’t want to be writing a post in a couple weeks telling everyone how I regretted going through with the race knowing I wasn’t fully prepared (or potentially even fully healed).
I tried to keep my spirits up through the two months of physical therapy, telling myself that I could walk/run it, even as the weeks of PT ticked on… and once that seemed impossible, I kept telling myself I could walk the half marathon since I had been walking everyday, but honestly I just don’t know. It’s so hard for me to admit that I can’t when I so wish that I could. One thing I DO regret is not coming to this conclusion sooner (before Aug 31) because I could have had my race deferred to the following year.
Earlier this evening, I decided that I should still go to the event to support my mom and grandma (who registered to walk the Forrest 5k) rather than not going at all. I then perused the Long Beach Marathon weekend website looking for things to do on race day (thinking that my only option was to forego it altogether) and learned ‘as long as an event hasn’t sold out by the EXPO date, that an event registration can be transferred‘. Maybe I would be able to walk the 5k with them instead! Unfortunately the deadline for doing this online was Sept 17th, (ugh!), so now I just have to wait. I feel pretty annoyed at myself for coming to this conclusion so late in the game and missing all the deadlines… but all I can do now is cross my fingers and hope that the 5k doesn’t sell out in the next 12 days (I will be checking online everyday!). And make sure to go to the Friday expo as soon as it opens to transfer my registration (assuming it is not sold out).
Overall, I feel that it would be better for me to walk the 5k with family (since I can do that no problemo!) than to attempt the half , constantly wondering whether or not that was a good decision.
Anyone want to share their race deferment/transfer/cancellation story?